can anyone relate?

[ImDrowning]

21 y.o. male
i got an OWI, totaled my car, and possession of marijuana in the past month
i moved home due to $.
lost my liscense for 6 months
possible jail time...ill find that out in 2-3weeks
currently on celexa/welbutrin
i enjoy drumming, pot, and cutting
im currently listening to the virgin suicides score by air.
wanting to let it all go caues i can't handle the anxiety and depressed moods.... sick of pills being the only way i can live daily and face the world
hate waking up at 630am for fuckin prerequisites for goddamn electronics & computer classes
i fucked up the past 3 years of college.....school sad sleep dropped transfer school grades go up transfer school grades go down sad dont care repeat x 99

and to top it all off i don't understand life.

[Paprika]

Thats exactly me. I'm a sophmore in high school, love electronics and computers, strong girl attraction but can't even talk to them. I'm on Zoloft and welbutrin SR. I've also wanted to kill myself, atleast once I day I think about it dead seriously. I did today, I know. I don't understand life but I like to take it as a joke and just say 'fuck it' do what I want and enjoy what time I'll have left. Right now its 3am here and I gotta get up fron school in 3 hours. Ahhh... well. Music is a very strong factor in my attitude, it really helps me. I like to listen to Hellbound by EMINEM on of the main verses says :
"Am I the worse? Because I never goto church? Run a red light and sideswipe a hurse." and "..tell me is this hell we're livin` in? If so heaven's gotta be better but if we're hellbound whatever lets go down" I like the attitude he takes as in "..whatever lets go down..." like fuck this... I'm going on, if it happens it happens. Well I'm gonna goto bed now, I'll be back later. Either when I get up, from school around 1pm or when I get home at 3. Come back again, and by the way. Welcome to the forum! :P

[ImDrowning]

dane cook has been my savior today. he's fuckin funny. the public restrooms bit rocks.

[Paprika]

:) I'm glad to hear it, I've got my own problems...again... right now, you can read my latest post/thread about it.

[Lord_Data]

this looks like a good place to start

STOP THE TRENDY CUTTING!!! fool

what the hell are you thinking

now with that out of the way let me welcome you to the boards and may the talking about things bring serenity to your life...as for all that shit that happened...thats what you get...no matter how much you want it marijuana is not legal...i don't know what an OWI is but i am gonna guess that its not good but i will refrain from commenting...as for the totalled car...if you did something stupid or were high i feel no sympathy for you...if other circumstances...well shit happens...unfortunately a great deal of shit happens to the people on this board but apparently such is life...

now if i sound mean i apologize but it is hard for me to feel sorry for someone who seems to be bringing his/her(sorry didn't know if you were female or male)problems upon his/her-self...i try my darnedest to get my life together but no matter what i try i am SOL...then i see people such as yourself who seem to be temporarily depressed for whatever reason and i am supposed to drop what i am doing to sympathize...not from me buddy...here is a little tough love for you...stop the stupid shit(pot/cutting)and focus in onm the good things(you mentioned drumming but i am sure you can find other things you are good at as well)...let me just apologize again for my rudeness...

oh as for the can anyone relate...i am 21 and in college...but thats about all i can relate to you with:/ perhaps that is why i am being a dick...sorry

[eiraena]

buddy, you sound just like me.

today i found out that my best friend, whose family i've lived with for the past year, told her mum i was selling my speed and she called the cops.

i'm at the dorms right now, i'm miserable at night when i'm all alone. i cant deal with most people unless i'm on drugs, which i cant get right now, since i'm waiting to see what pans out with the cops.

all i want is some alcohol so i stop spazzing at least while i'm not in class, but i'm only almost 19, so when i found out about the cops i had to get rid of that too.

i cut myself too, but i havent for a while, i was managing that habit by balancing it out with other 'stuff'. i dont know what i'm gonna do now.

i think the DWI was a rather foolish and totally callus thing to do, but we all have our ups and downs, if you didnt hurt anyone than i'm not gonna rag on the subject too much. i'm sure you've figured out the point already.

my real family is not really a good place for me, that's why i was living elsewhere, but right now i have to keep using them for money. i feel really pathetic. using people is below my standards, but what ever.

i dont try to understand life anymore. there are lots of times when i want to die, but i have certain responsibilities that i have to keep up, if i give up right now, my next life will be worse, i'm sure. i must have really fucked up last time,though, to deserve this.

anyhow, email me if you want to talk. at least on the internet i can socialize. eiraena@yahoo.com