I'm at school right now

[Paprika]

After the doctor's appointment they put me ina 'crisist bed' which is basicly a few days in foster care. Its not at all fun, I want to go back home because I need my computer to start my student council campgain and I just want to be home but my mom said, on wensday, that she didn't want me back in her house. I've been thinking about calling her and attempting to apologize and explain my actions, but I think she won't let me back even if she dose she'll probably be still mad at me. :cry: , I wouldn't be soo sad if I had of set up that xbox chat network I wanted to but I broke my xbox like the bum I am. =( Damn I hate my life it suckss and for no reason

[eiraena]

listen, paprika, this is the point where you need to decide whether or not you're mum is like mine, or if maybe there is still some chance you two can get along for the next three years. i have never been put in emergency foster care, but at one point i ended up at the crisis center for about a week after a similar episode with my parents. it sucked, but on the other hand, the differnt environment was a great relief. i dont know exactly what is going on, legal-wise with you right now, but if you should decide to stay in regular foster care, it might actually be better for you in the long run. my biggest worry about you right now though, is that if you keep acting out violently like this towards you mother, or even anyone else, they'll probably put you in a group home, which, if you think foster care sucks, is gonna be far closer to hell than you can imagine. you're not a people person, and most kids in group homes are nasty delinqents, and you really dont want to end up there. just try not to spaz out while youre in this emergency foster care thing, and think about what would really be best for YOU. you shouldnt base this decision on what you want for your sister, because i am sure you cant be doing her much good pissing off your mum, and being this upset all the time. however you react to these circumstances is your choice, and it will have a huge impact on the rest of your life.

please keep me posted on whats going on. i start school on tuesday, and i dont know how much time i'm gonna have, or if i'll have msn or not, so just emailing me would be the easiest.

i hope everything works out for you.

eiraena

[Paprika]

i'm back home now, all is ok. I gotta get ajob though.. thats my 1st goal.

[Lord_Data]

hmmm...i hope everything really is "all OK"

that would be some good news

and for lack of time to post details...i agree with eiraena on this one...good luck with the job thing...it is a pain in the ass to find one...but eventually it will be there...and since you are only a sophomore i suggest nothing over 20 hours a week...actually nothing over 15...but thats just me...i am a sophomore in college and i only plan to work 12 lol...anyhow good to know you are ok...hope evreything gets better and life doesn't suck so much