[XoX] How i couldn't stop crying [XoX]

[Box.Of.[løst].Thoughts]

Last night was insane, i was talking to my sister Meagen who moved out of state, quite awhile back. When i had run away that was the last day i seen her. Now i'm back home and she is so far once again. I really miss her and i was just talking then i just want to be with her. She is the only person in my family that i am really, really close to. Probably the only person in this world now. I just told her "I miss you", then the tears just came. I couldn't stop for anything, I hadn't cried like huge tears in sooo long. Then i just started laughing when i tasted the slimmy buggers that had pour out on my lips with all the redness of my soaken in my lonely tears face. So i all told her laughing "Ewe slimy buggers" and she laughed. I still was crying though the tears wouldn't stop. I just started to miss some very, VERY, important people in my life who just kind of faded one day, somehow.
Well, i feel alot better today. Still kind of down and i can't really find any music to hype my mood up any.
Welp, i'm going to go, *muahs*
Still loving this site- *~

[Troz]

Does it feel better if/when you cry? like, do you feel like you're releasing something? I hate crying. To me, it's a sign of weekness... at least for me. I don't think that for other ppl, definitely not. I'm strange that way. If someone else feels bad, i tell them it's ok to cry if they need to... I just hate it when /i/ cry... b/c in my head, if i cry, if i'm so week as that, how can i be strong for others when they need it? does that make any sense or am i just rambling?

~Troz*

[Box.Of.[løst].Thoughts]

Well you werent rambling, haha. It made perfect sense to me. :wink: Well i know it felt this time like i was releasing something, kinda of nice. But usually i HATe crying. I think it shows im weak too. Can't stand it but i also tell others it's fine to cry. *shrugs* I think it's strange. It just kind of happened and i couldnt stop it, but once i got control i felt stupid and weak. Like ya know, thinking "i can handle this i've been through worse, why cry now?! huh?" So yeah in a way it felt good, but for the most part i felt weak and pathetic.

[eiraena]

i understand you guys too. i feel like i always have to be so strong for everyne else, everyone depends on me and knows i wont crack, so when i do, i feel like i am letting somebody down. it doesnt make sense, but thats just the way ti is.

[Box.Of.[løst].Thoughts]

Yeah that also, my best friend, Jennifer, she always says "i've never seen you cry before" and i have known her for about 7 years. It's like you are showing weakness. Maybe that could also be feelings of depression, or something. I dunno :? . But like the whole don't bottle it all up on the inside. I was alone when i was crying but i still felt weak, i at least thought being alone wouldn't make me feel weak. It <i>should</i> be okay to cry, in front of people or alone. But i hate the feeling of warm tears running down my face and the taste of them on my curved lips. It's like there ripping away my skin while running down them like razors. Well I don't know what I'm getting at. But i sometimes wish i could just cry, because i feel like if i dont i will just explode with blackness.
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[Troz]

Dude, go write some serious poetry. You do right? If you don't you should. But anyways, eiraena that's exactly how i feel about it too. Like i have to do it for others, b/c i'm depended on. If i can't live up to that then what's the point of trying to do anything else. Friends are what matter, right?

~troz*

[kitty]

Don't worry about crying, let poeple see you cry, we all get upset sometimes. You don't need to feel guilty about it, who do you believe you need to be strong for? Think about you actually want. You don't have to be strong just for other people.

[Box.Of.[løst].Thoughts]

Yeah, i know them are all true. And i know my friend wouldnt think i was weak if i cried. Maybe it's growing up and parents and people were always telling you "Don't cry", "suck it up", "ill give you something to cry about" Like it wasnt right to cry, then when we get older they tell us "It's okay to cry, everyone does it and needs to" It's just weird i guess. Because actually, i have never had someone tell me to my face it's okay to cry. And yeah i write poetry, in the poems and art section those shootingpixidust poems are mine. I write alot sometimes. Long short good bad what not there all poems.
:arrow: *~

[Paprika]

.Thoughts"]
Last night was insane, i was talking to my sister Meagen who moved out of state, quite awhile back. When i had run away that was the last day i seen her. Now i'm back home and she is so far once again. I really miss her and i was just talking then i just want to be with her. She is the only person in my family that i am really, really close to. Probably the only person in this world now. I just told her "I miss you", then the tears just came. I couldn't stop for anything, I hadn't cried like huge tears in sooo long. Then i just started laughing when i tasted the slimmy buggers that had pour out on my lips with all the redness of my soaken in my lonely tears face. So i all told her laughing "Ewe slimy buggers" and she laughed. I still was crying though the tears wouldn't stop. I just started to miss some very, VERY, important people in my life who just kind of faded one day, somehow.
Well, i feel alot better today. Still kind of down and i can't really find any music to hype my mood up any.
Welp, i'm going to go, *muahs*
Still loving this site- *~

Sorry I am responding so late into the game, I had to tend to the gallery installation - see my post for more details. Anyway, remember that all will be ok, you just gotta get over it and move on. If you don't get over it you'll never get better, you'll never heal like this. Get Kazaa Lite and use it to download some good music, is like napster but no ads, no spyware, no pop-ups. Good stuff, get it at: http://doa2.host.sk/

[eiraena]

what art section?

and yes, we all know eiraena is technologically retarded, so why not just be nice, and instead of trying to explain to her how to find the art section, just post the link so i can read that poetry???

:)

[Paprika]

see the main page girlfriend, all the links are there on the main site. I hope you've been checking it all along!

Picture & Art Gallery
http://www.teen-moods.net/gallery/

Poems
http://www.teen-moods.net/index.php?page=poems

[Box.Of.[løst].Thoughts]

Well i will surely DL that then, :wink: Thanks, haha and the poems, hmmm.
http://www.teen-moods.net/index.php?page=poems
Sorry this is short i will catch a few good words in later, :D haha
:arrow: *~