Just depressed

I'm soooo depressed. I cry myself to sleep. I hate myself. I hate who I am. I hate who I've turned into. I feel like everyone else hates me. I think of suicide a lot and how I'd do it. I want to do it. I hate what I've become. I hate how people treat me. I hate how I treat people. I hate everything about me. I want to die.

[eiraena]

dear jazmine,

i am sorry you are feeling so down right now. it seems like everyone in the world is having a shitty week. :evil:

i understand what it is like to hate everybody incl. yourself most of all, and be absolutely convinced they all hate you back.

maybe you ought to try a change of setting just to get away from all the people whose prescense are making your life miserable. i know you cant get away from yourself, but a few less reminders of why you hate yourself could be very helpful.

do you have any out-of-town relatives you could stay with for a while? or any out of town friends? or if you cant get out of town, maybe you could just hide with an older relative for a while and pretend you are somewhere else, and let life go by with out you for a week or so while you just try to pull things together again?

i hope you start feeling better soon :wink:

eiraena