Paprika
09-18-2002, 11:11 PM
I don't even want to get into what has happened to me today.. not a bad day out of a million, its just a typical day, I dunno what to do with myself, I realy don't want to commit suicide but my options seem to be narrowing down to that. My mom is no help, she only makes things worse. My sister dosen't cause problems she just wants me to help her and I go crazy at times when I'm tring to help her but she is scares, like when she got a splinter, we thought that what is was but it turned out to be just a cut, I yelled at her, tried talking to her, telling her everything I could to convince her to let me look at it but she was scared I would touch it and make it worse.. long story short I ended up tring to hold her still I I hurt her, nothing serious mind you but she started crying I thoughthe tweezers into their drawer, yelled at her not to talk to me again or not to ask me for anything else again and went into my room slamming the door behind me. I feel like I am holding my faimly in this house prisioner, I really need to do someting with myself before its too late. :( The other day I was reading a series of special artickes on Dr. Kavorkian (i think I spelled it right..) anyway in my eyes that man was a hero, I just hope I can find some one like him when my time comes, a nice peaceful comfortable death....